Of course, I did not run a fall race as I knew I probably wouldn't when I last posted. I didn't even run once in the entire month of October. Oh, well. I did go to Burma though. My main accomplishment in the month of October was pumping on this 8 day trip away from my baby *and transporting all of the milk home, through 3 countries, packed in ice in four 68oz thermoses.* It was terrible! (And heavy!) Avoid if possible. But I am so glad I did it, because, ya know. You gotta do what you gotta do.
A good thing about the last two terrible weeks is that I went for my first run since September and something incredible happened. I had no pain, no twinges, no "ugh so postpartum" sense I was hauling my body around. It was nothing like the lumbering I was doing a few months ago. I felt spry? Light on my feet? Strong, even??
I can't talk, or do anything without thinking about the election. It has seeped into every part of my life. So I will say: I was getting in touch with my election feelings on this run. I tapped into a fury that burned hotter and hotter the farther I went.
I think I'm going to need running in the coming months, and years (gulp). I am not going to rededicate myself to PRs or anything like that, at least not now. Now more than ever, I think we all need to take a hard look at how we spend our free time and see what more we could be doing in order to build the resistance (by volunteering, protesting, going to community meetings, taking on organizing roles, writing, and so forth). But I recognize I need, and want, to get back in a small habit again, to tap into this strength I seem to only be able to access when I'm running.
I started running at 5 weeks postpartum, and felt fine (I thought). But running never clicked. I didn't feel good and I can't really describe why. I think my hormones took longer than normal to straighten out? Also, and I guess this is important: My baby has never slept through the night. I haven't gotten a regular night's sleep for more than six months. Now I see that I tried to get back into running before I was really ready. My advice to myself, six months ago? Just wait. Forget it. Go walking instead.
Starting from scratch
It might be premature to start posting weekly recaps here, but I do want to record what it's like to start running again from essentially nothing. So far, I:
- Found & charged my Garmin
- Found my iPod and that little USB charger thing, and charged it
- Made a rough "plan" to get me to a TBD spring 2017 half marathon (ish). I would also be happy running some trail races in the spring instead.
What can be said about three short little runs? Tuesday was my longest postpartum run, until Saturday came around and I ran 5 miles! I am slow. My easy pace is in the 10-minute mile range. But it feels good to have a fresh beginning, and I know things can only go up from here.